so tomorrow
my greed goes into hibernation
at least for a month
i love fasting
the distraction of food is removed
and for one month in a year
i am able to think clearly
well at least in the day

heh

otherwise it is all pretty foggy
ravi has been in vietnam since friday
i would love to be in ho chi minh
walk around
shop around
while he is hard at work
maybe in december
maybe

ravi got me a ring
i chose it
not that he has bad taste
his taste is just adverse to mine
lets not think about how ravi would have known which ring to get for me quietly
if he observed more
if he listened more
if he were more aware
and though one might think this could be unfair

if he actually gave a shit

but he doesnt
so there
that is how i had to choose my own ring
i am a sucker for surprises
but nevermind
then he thought would be nice if he would give it to me on some later date

and what does he do

while watching xmen in his underwear
he happened to pass the jewellery bag while scratching growing belly
then said
oh yeah supposed to give this to you
ok

not exactly a marriage proposal

then he got into bed where i was reading an exceptionally riveting book
held the box in his hand and got distracted by xmen
then looked at me and opened it
then got distracted again
finally i complained about how xmen isnt particularly nat king coleand he switched off the tv
slipped the ring on my finger
admired it
then switched the tv back on

immediately

what can i say
am i in this for the rest of my life

was really uncomfortable with the ring for three days or so
felt like a pig with markings on its side
0435KJN
only mine says

ravi -space- 750

and then suddenly realised
oops
i am owned

though am pretty convinced is own fault ring is on finger now

how come a ring can mean anything

so anyway
need to get back to work

or look very hardworking at least