Monday, February 16, 2004

today

how does it go?
when i blink my eyes open to the roaring buses
and the children's annoying, thoughtless screams below?
how can it be?
that stuffing the musky pillow over my reddened ears
i can still hear them yelping me awake merrily?
how goes it?
when my penthouse lids tear awake to the creeping dawn
and i can only hear the anger against my ribcage beat?
how can it be?
that unfounded pain and excruciating sadness sets in
and asphyxiates the possibility of life in me?
how does it go?
that standing limp and nude in the shower they run freely
whilst naked and exposed out there not a tear i dare show?
how can it be?
picking up the hairdryer against my soaked dropping hair
i would bite my lips and question why they think i'm pretty?
how goes it?
stroking the coaldust through my mellow lashes and drawing through
the heart morphinates over like frozen meat?
how can it be?
the strides are long and confident on the plane
and the eyes show joy and the smiles come naturally?
how does it go?
in interstices of absorption in labour i jolt awake
and scream in white silence while the seconds ebb and flow?
how can it be?
as the feet sally me on and the day grows weary
that i feel myself sinking backwards and gurgling desperately?
how goes it?
the hold stands strong in fear of kin ridicule
but the bleeding soul gives way when alone again in the bed?


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